P r i n c e s s.

bad thoughts , negative thoughts :

i need to get them out of my head and seriously trust more.
i dont know where this going to lead me -
how can i want something so much but not be able to face it?

im starting to realize alot of things about myself that i really wish wasnt true.

ughhh ;

but.

God is my stronghold. and my strength .. and i will pull through , cuz he has me by the hand .

i just ask for a little prayer .

WOW

life’s changing fast. whats up with that? even tho i already know the answer : God. but h e n e w a y s ; LOOOONG DAY. looooooong month ! woooot . (x funnythang of the day: ” this smells good. here, smell this: its a freakn daisy. ” ” a what, mom? ” ” a freakn daisy. ” ” uhmm, you mean an african daisy? like as in africa? ” ” Oi … ” HAHAHAHAHAH, i love my mom philipino parents.

Ahhh.

joy-josh:

I really think I want to minor in theatre. Err, I can’t decide. =[

-Joy.

you are SO capable of doing that. (:

I GOD YOU

turboberno:

Praise God for another random day.

Woke up at 6:30AM… Shower.

Left for Del Valle Lake in Livermore for Family Day  (after Bryle made us all late. haha.)

Got sunburned, went into lake. Water balloon fights.

My favorite memory of today was when I was on one end of the tug of war and about 8 KFCers were on the other end… they were pulling with all their strength so I was no match for them..

Had a deep talk with Divina. Then Princess. Then Andre.

Andre led a random worship at the lake beach with the public watching “we can’t be scared.. it doesn’t matter what people think about us…” got the group to worship even though people were giving us weird looks as they were going towards the beach.

Drive home. wow.

Brotherhood. wow.

Sisterhood. wow. (with their new initiation… SLAPPER to counter the SHOCKER).

Mildred Rabang. wow.

Waiting till midnight to “wish” Nathan Selga a happy birthday.. PRICELESS.

Looking back on today, God is still in the miracle business..

There’s a reason why I experienced all this.. or why I’m still here.

I just want to leave you with one simple saying:

GOD = LOVE…

In that case…

I GOD YOU!!!

teaching.

it’s what i want to do (: today me, dianne, anjeanette, and a few key club members went to tutor over at komure and i love little kids. i love being with the second graders. i want to be able to teach little kids and see them learn something new. they’re so cute! like how they stumble over the words and get SO EXCITED over doing some simple flash cards. “WHEELCHAIR! ahahahahahahahah.” [x or how they clean up after class while the spiderman theme song’s playing. and just seeing them progress [; if i want to ever be doing a job, i want to be able to pass something down. not just use my abilities for myself. earn money to just supply my needs for the rest of my entire life. i want to be able to share what i know [no matter how little it seems.] and i realize that the seventh graders to the second graders ia a huge leap. not only in grades, but in attitude? ALL BAD. makes me rethink about having teachers like mr. keith. i know he’s a jerk, and HELLA blunt .. but, i have to be honest. mr. keith sets the tone. he takes no crap but still finds a way to use his harsh words to make you realize where you need to be if you want to be something. i think people should appreciate how much the teachers put in their way to have us learn a few things. just being on the sidelines watching them try to calm the kids down makes me wonder : how do they put up with it? ” just to put food on the plate. ” of course, that could be it. but for the teachers who actually try? WOW. they’re some pretty courageous people. like parents for six hours a day, four days a week.

oh snaps .

man, its monday. day-off from school! )x and im doing nothing! whats wrong with that? haha.

step by step ;

im moving forward (; im finding it easier to moce throughout the day and accept things for what they are now. praise God

humbled.

I’ve been beaten down and tested HARD, but something tells me to prepare myself STILL for something more challenging. What if God wishes to test me? What if the devil wishes to go full blast with his temptations? BUT I WONT TRIP TO THE POINT IM TRIPPN ALL OVER THE PLACE. I will trust in God. Build that trust more and more and more. And, only through the name of Christ and for his Glory, I will lead when he urges me to lead others, I will follow when he urges me to follow others, I will humble myself. Because I’m no greater than God.